November 3, 2007
Accordionist for Alpine Wedding~Riffleberg, Switzerland
I am a solo artist in many ways, my marriage was more apart then in the same space, I have lived with significant others also. I am content with solitude and good love, in all forms. I also want to be open to what life is, umm, I think. I also like sex when it is in a true connection.
I am astounded, due to my own nature, at how people approach their need for connection.
Here is a run down:
Made it all the way to the send an 8000 character email part with one man, wrote what I thought was an articulate, considerate, energetic, inquiring and email. I took it sincerely, He closed the match, marked Other as his reason. He could have emailed me. For me, I think I will let my subscription slide, I have never seen so little risk taking in my life!
The flip side of this coin: I wrote a man and told him I did not think it would work between us. I needed more words, it is a language venue, and he and I were clearly different in that arena. He wrote back. Kim, whets the rush? If you need to close the match that is fine with me, but hey, we might have fun just writing. I wrote him back, he had a good point!
Another man, born in Italy, raised in India, when I wrote words in the messenger he responded and not with puzzlement. He asked me to call him, I did. He said he thought talking was not a good idea because his mind was in the gutter at that moment. My mistake, which I have apologized for, was to mislead myself into thinking I had cajoled him into talking. He hung up and shut his phone off, I know this because when asked he did indeed give a direct answer. I told him our communication styles were clearly incompatible.
Another man wrote me an energetic, loaded with question email based on viewing my profile on Yahoo Personals. It felt nice. We spoke on messenger and he has written more times than I can count that he wants to get close to my heart. Now we are dangling at the other end of the spectrum! I am a turtle plus I wonder how he already knows he wants this? He does not answer my questions. And, the last message said he missed me. Missed me? Who does he miss?
Wait, I am not done yet!
Another man messages me and said he liked my profile and was looking for a relationship. We finally talked and he clearly stated that he had never been married and was looking for the right woman, the one that would not hurt him. So, I inhaled, and gave him my take on life, hurt, healing, story and foundation. I mean, it was a conversation, yes? He said: You have been hurt, that is bad. I said, tell me about bad and what that means to you. Dead air. Finally, I wrote: Is there a problem? I thought we were having a conversation? No, I am thinking, he said. What are you thinking? Whether you are the right one for me. The, he logged off. Ahem.
Eharmony is guided communication and for me, when you finally get to the email part, there are things to say! Things to ask! Express! I do not go for the intimate entrails; I promise! The person who gets to write the first email varies based on who started the communication. I got my first email from a man that said: i am looking forward to getting to know you. Now, the sentiment is nice. And, yes, I realize we can’t all be compulsive expressive writer types, but it is a WRITING VENUE. I am at a loss. I will write him after I stop having rude reactions. He is probably doing the best he can and being rude in never something I seek. And, when I write back? I will ask questions. Will he answer?
What am I looking for? Well, we all know what we are looking for when we meet that energy. My goal is to stay open and see what is.
I will be officially taking a break from seeing what it is for a few days!
Bum Dee Dum…
I feel like watching—-Shark Tales! Finding Nemo!
I did watch a movie last night that had me in the seat: Celebration. Ouch!
Off to pizza, a lame mystery and some damn sleep.
Dalai Lama Sun Valley Idaho United States
November 28, 2006
What to say……
I can only smile…
You tell me why I am smiling.
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October 11, 2006
First Photograph: Reflection
Second Photograph: Flow Around Obstacles
Third Photograph: Heat Two
Fourth Photograph: Cornered
Fifth Photograph: Worlds Away
Sixth Photograph: Rock Trio
Seveth Photograph: X’s and O’s
All Work from Contemporary Concepts